Guilt

How could I ever expect to find happiness?
Why should I ever expect anything different?
I know the mistakes I have made.
I know the challenges in front of me.

Life has put me in this place for a reason,
And I have come to the understanding that this is it.
This is my life, the way it was always meant to be,
alone.

People tell me I deserve happiness,
when the sad truth is I deserve nothing.
Everything I have, I worked for.
Nothing is ever given.

I am alone, and that is the way it was meant to be.
To think different is to invite unhappiness.
Maybe some people were just meant to be alone.
I am one of those people.