Ides of march

In the darkness is where I belong, 
Alone with myself,  deserving. 
Happiness has long been a fleeting memory,
And I'm OK with that. 

In the darkness is where I belong,
Alone with my thoughts, 
The pain driving the process,
The anguish makes it real. 

In the darkness is where I belong, 
In my mind,  the darker thoughts dwell. 
Only alone can I keep them at bay, 
By myself I build the walls higher. 

In the darkness is where I belong, 
Far away from the sun,  and fun, 
And love which you share. 
I can't be the one who cares. 

In the darkness is where I belong, 
It's where I belong.  Where I can be free, where I can be me.  It's where you don't exist and people don't come. 
It's my only world now.